I can’t remember ever being ready to say good-bye to a year like 2015! It was overshadowed by the death of my grandmother last year on Christmas Day. Then my step-father passed away at the end of March.
I found myself in a slump throughout the year, yearning to do something creatively but completely unable to write anything as much as I wanted to. That’s one reason why my blog was not very active as in year’s past. I even tried to edit a finished manuscript I have but couldn’t even give it the attention it deserved.
Yeah, we planted a garden and grew flowers, but having captured every moment of the growing season in pictures in years’ past I just didn’t feel like it this year.
I read around a dozen books, much less than years before. I started and stopped several as what had been one of my favorite hobbies just couldn’t hold my attention. Yep, I was actually tired of reading and took several months off.
I rushed the holiday months along by busying myself with my usual crafts this time of year, which I did blog about a bit. I finished up the gift making two weeks before Christmas and have enjoyed the reprieve. But I didn’t put up a Christmas tree this year or decorate any for the holidays.
I find myself filled more with the Christmas spirit once it’s already here and too late. Even now I frown at myself, wishing I had at least put up the tree.
I’ve compared moments in my life to this feeling before; I have felt like I am sitting in a giant waiting room waiting patiently for whatever comes next. There’s no music playing. No magazines to read. Just a clock on the wall ticking my life away around me while I sit and wait for something to happen.
It’s how most of us spend our drab lives: waiting on the weekend, dreading the next birthday, paying the next bill, stuck in the routine that life hands us and we are either unable or unaware how to change it.
But this time of year, one of the best ways to change it is by flipping the calendar. The door to our waiting room opens and it’s a new day and a new month. It’s Month 1 Day 1. It’s a new year. It’s a new start.
So that’s where I am right now….waiting for a new start. Ready, Set,…